I called my ex girlfriend Allison for the first time in almost 3 quarters of a year I'm guessing today. I was very nervous to call her. Bryan generously called her for me and let me use his cell phone so that her parents didn't find out that I called her. I wanna thank Bryan for that. She was getting upset when I was on the phone with her. She said she was going through allot of bad things in life. That made me wonder if I should tell her about how I still had feelings for her. I didn't want to freak her out or make her any more upset. But I had to. I had to get things off my chest and tell her how I felt. If I never did that then I would be wondering about it for the rest of my life. So we talked about her life n my life since the day we broke up. Then I told her about how I still think about her n feel things for her. Didn't seem to make her more upset. she told me that when we were dating she used me as a way to deal with pain. And she told me she didn't want to date anyone for a long time. But I got her AIM screen name and I hope to at least be a good friend to her. And i also hope to talk to her more.